OK so half of the people I know have found their place on earth. Is everything so sorted out for everyone or are they all playing cool? Am i the only one who's still haven't figured it all out?
Yeah every morning I wake up I kinda feel there is another life here waiting for me, or actually it's me waiting for it. Like the characters in an andrei tarkovsky film. And yeah, the main issue is to make it to that life, make it while I'm still young and strong. I'll have to turn my world upside down, leave things and situations (my current job per say), I'll have to go all out and risk every little bit of so called security!
My god, the radio is playing the 4nonblondes..!
Right now I'll go home and take it easy, I've done enough for the day, earned my daily bread and whatever.. So yeah I'll rent a film out, something old and Japanese probably :), and just chill. I spent the weekend & bank holiday away at E's birthplace, and it was cool, even if I felt lost inside during some parts of the trip. We pretty much turned the town upside down with all crazy and incoherent behavior. So it was cool. M did some surfing, F took the pix and I was the link between all these people and E (who apart from being a stand up gf also housed & fed us). I like it when it works out like that. Even if I don't have a particular role in the groups I hang out, I'm still there and people seem to laugh w/ my jokes and stuff so that's cool. That's cool!
So yeah, I guess life is good but also I look out for sth more, not just be happy with what I got and sit there forever. I do appreciate all that nature and god has given me, I connect and feel thankful but I still feel like the full potential is yet to come.